“Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory” – Dr Seuss
It’s 5am and I toss and turn trying to go back to sleep. I focus, craning to hear a sound or a voice calling me to see what brought me out of my slumber. It is still dark, the moment just before the birds awake. The world outside is mostly silent apart from the odd car engine grumbling as the shift workers head out to start their day.
My mind is calm but curious as to why I am awake so early. Naturally I raise my internal voice to sing the bridge of the song still resonating with my spirit from Church the night before:-
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever You would call me. Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander and my faith will be made stronger in the presence of my Saviour” (Hillsong United)
“Speak Lord your servant is listening” I say to my Creator and wait. Flashes of memories come into my mind, they are memories of my father’s parents. I see my grandma giggling in delight as she gives me her “squidgy” hugs. I see my grandpa showing me how to spin honey out of the honeycomb in the back shed. I remember….. I feel the delight of just being in their presence as a child, the love. The memory moves on to when I had to say goodbye, the last time I saw them before they died. What sadness and yet what beauty knowing that they had a relationship with Jesus.
Have you ever had moments like that? Where you have allowed yourself to remember, let in the sadness, relived the happiness and re-processed the confusion?
Have you ever allowed yourself to see the value in that moment?
Over the last 6 weeks I have been reliving moments of significance as I complete the study “Undaunted” by Christine Caine. Some of the memories have brought me back to a time in my life where my world was turned upside down and I was asking “why me?”. It has been a challenging and enriching process even though some memories were painful.
I wonder if we stop ourselves from looking back as an observer because all we see are bad moments….
Can bad moments have value? Yes! I firmly believe that they often have greater value than the good moments because it is in the hard times that we tend to dig deeper into God and is the time of most growth. I know that sometimes it is easier to avoid certain memories but let me reassure you with something I know to be true.
Every moment in your life can be overcome with Jesus.
God’s power is present whatever storm we are going through as true as it is when the sun is shining. Every moment had and has value.
God’s Word is full of His wisdom about our moments. His truth contains words of comfort, instruction, healing, praise, correction and encouragement. You name it and there’s a verse for it! Even the questions – just look at King David pouring out his anguish in the book of Psalms:-
“Lord, don’t rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony. My soul is in deep anguish. How long, Lord, how long?” Psalm 6:1-3.
I encourage you to take time to listen for your Creators voice in those moments of silence. To wait to see what He wants you to learn moment to moment. I encourage you to remember – not to hold on to the past but use what you learn to move forward into what God has planned for your future.
You have a purpose, a calling that God is eager to move you towards.
Just remember even taking one small step moves you forwards.
(original post – 19.8.2015)
References: Holy Bible: New International Version. (2011). Grand Rapids, Mich.: Zondervan; Hillsong United – Oceans (Where Feet May Fail) Lyrics | MetroLyrics