When I started my blog a couple of years back I always envisioned that it would be to publish my thoughts on where I saw God day to day in every day life. Every day life to me was, at the time what I would consider quite average and included:-
- Single mum to a pretty amazing son.
- Working full time.
- Serving in a number of ministries at my church.
- Running Bible studies in my home throughout the year.
- The odd health issue but nothing too concerning.
- The odd tough time with family law and financial issues.
One thing was for certain I was always in a rush. At times it was hard to stop throughout my busy life to write my thoughts down to share with you, I have at least 10 partially written blog posts sitting there waiting to expand on but never seeming to have the moments of time to stop, process and complete them.
Little did I know that life would throw me a curve ball and my blog would grow from snippets of life lessons I have learned into a testimony of God’s faithfulness in a particularly tough time.
Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. Hebrews 10:23 (NIV)
I have been diagnosed with Stage 3C Ovarian Cancer. When I was first diagnosed I couldn’t even say the word. Part of me was in disbelief and with the initial appointments I would go with the tiny hope in the back of my mind that they would say “we were mistaken”. We had been living the last year as a family throughout my father’s terminal diagnosis and it never occurred to me that I would have my own cancer journey.
I had always dreamed of being a writer, and now that I am unable to work for a season I certainly have a lot of opportunity to write.
I have had people ask me so many questions – some asking if I am concerned about dying if the treatment doesn’t work, others asking what I need, and other beautiful people who don’t know what to say so they do all the know how which is to love and bless us in whatever way they can.
So this my friends is what my blog is going to begin to look like. I will write about my journey and let you know that from day one God has been ever-present and overwhelmingly carrying me in ways I never could have dreamed of. He has been so “in my face” that there has been no room for fear, only an overwhelming sense of being humbled that over all the years He has put things in play right for this moment.
What a comfort it is to have a God who already knows the outcome and already knows what we need before we even ask.
Don’t get me wrong. I know there will be times of tears during the mess and vulnerability when I don’t know that I have the energy to take another step but if there is one thing I am sure of it is that I trust God in all things, the good and the bad, and I really desire for you to meet Jesus if you don’t have a relationship with Him already.
I pray that through my journey you will see God in the midst and that it will encourage you to push on in your journey.