I can’t remember the last moment I had where I was able to sit outside purely to enjoy the outdoors. Most of my days were usually filled with looking at my never-ending “to do lists” or binge-watching the latest TV series in between meetings and Church.
Every time I felt burnt out I would always make a vow to rest more, re-organise my schedule, eat healthier and exercise more. I made these promises to myself with determination and a steadfast resolve that this is what was required in order to achieve more calm in my chaos. Well, that was the plan, but all I ended up doing was to exchange one list for the next ensuring that my task filled life would continue.
Today is different. Today I’m at day 4 after my first chemo treatment and my soul is yearning for more time resting in God.
So often we look for Bible verses to speak truth into our circumstances. We are inspired when we go to Christian conferences arriving back home enthused to live a more fulfilled and intentional life. We read every spiritual growth book which fits our “now” moment nodding our head at the sections we relate to and noting down all the other new revelations we stumble across. These are all good things, and things that will certainly help us to grow, but how often do we choose to just rest in Him?
Today I choose to sit, rest and listen for God’s voice.
“Be still, and know that I am God.” (Psalm 46:10a)
I’m outdoors in my backyard sitting comfortably in the shade looking out at the yard which has been mowed, trimmed, tidied and cleared thanks to a team of beautiful people from my Church. If someone was to see me they would think nothing of it I’m sure.
But in the beauty of this single moment of time what they would be missing at first glance is that in my rest my senses are heightened.
I hear the rustle of the leaves as the wind blows through the trees. I see the blossoms fall to the ground like snow. I notice the sunshine disappear behind a cloud, just for a moment, and then delight in seeing it burst forth to dry my washing once again. I close my eyes and feel the wind.
I ponder what I see, feel and hear. The miracle of the moment, the pause in time which will soon be in the past and I smile.
“Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him.” (Psalm 37:7a)
Why do I smile? Because, in this beautiful moment I have discovered a truth that was just waiting for me. When we rest in God our spiritual senses will be heightened and He will meet us there. He will speak to us through His Word, we will have enough quiet to hear His voice and promptings. He will rejuvenate and infuse our innermost being with peace in the midst of our messes and it will be well with our soul.
Dear Lord, so often we allow time to rush us by as we desperately check off our to do lists each day. Please teach us how to stop and take the time to just rest in you. Let us never forget how precious time with you is. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.